Brent Blount - Jazz, Blues & Native American Music
   My mission is to help make space between people's mind and heart with music. Allow me to explain with a scene from a television show, Angel, that I saw when I was getting my life back together after hitting bottom with the bottle in '98. This scene is from 2000, and the second video helps explain it.


http://www.buffyworld.com/angel/transcripts/038_tran.html

Night. Kate and Angel are sitting side by side outside in the garden court of the Hyperion.

Kate:  "I feel like such an idiot."

Angel:  "A lot of that going around."

Kate:  "I just couldn't... - My whole life has been about being a cop. If I'm not part of the force it's like nothing I do means anything." 

Angel, still looking pretty beat up:  "It doesn't."

Kate:  "Doesn't what?"

Angel:  "Mean anything. In the greater scheme or the big picture, nothing we do matters.  There's no grand plan, no big win."

Kate:  "You seem kind of chipper about that."

Angel: "Well, I guess I kinda - worked it out.  If there is no great glorious end to all this, if - nothing we do matters, - then all that matters is what we do. 'cause that's all there is.  What we do, now, today. - I fought for so long.  For redemption, for a reward - finally just to beat the other guy, but... I never got it."

Kate:  "And now you do?"

Angel:  "Not all of it.  All I wanna do is help.  I wanna help because - I don't think people should suffer, as they do.  Because, if there is no bigger meaning, then the smallest act of kindness - is the greatest thing in the world."

Kate:  "Yikes.  It sounds like you had an epiphany."

Angel: "I keep saying that.  But nobody's listening."

Kate:  "Well, I'm pretty much convinced, since I'm alive to be convinced."

Angel:  "You know you don't have to be a cop to be..."

Kate:  "I'm okay. - Anyway, I'm *not* headed towards another pillathon. - I'm very grateful. - I never thought you'd come for me, but... I got cut a huge break and I believe... - I don't know what I believe, but I - have - faith. - I think maybe we're not alone in this."

Angel:  "Why?"

Kate:  "Because I never invited you in."